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are sponsored by the astrological sign Gemini: brilliant, restless, hilarious, uncaged.
are sponsored by the astrological sign Gemini: brilliant, restless, hilarious, uncaged.
Keely Franks-Rideout arrived at 15 today, and the world also rejoices at this. Like her parents, she is one of a kind. A lovable mix of very grown up (she has the amazing intelligence and imagination of both her parents) and very kidlike, she's great with adults, who can get into rapt conversations with her. Every year in a kid's life brings new surprises (like that fake Chinese proverb about living in insteresting times), and I can't wait to see hers.
Today I spent a bunch of time with people I've known for more than half my life. Dave came to visit solo from California, and we spent a couple of hours talking over fake sesame beef and curry. I miss him lots. And tonight we feted Joanie Ota, and the most amazing group of people she's friends with all showed up and made her the happiest birthday girl ever. She was radiant, and damn she is mostly a very happy 50. There'll always be something youngest-kid-ish about Joanie: she's unguarded and expressive, totally draws people in. We compared all the different circles of hers that were represented: her kayaking friends, her Harborview friends (including crazy Redhead One, aka Carolyn, who seems pretty happy not with Pablo Alto), her Pomona friends, one friend from when she was in junior high in Long Beach (who later moved to Portland). Completely lovely people all, some with lovely kids. Barb was really sweet interacting with Kyle, Ken and Cindy's son. She knows what sweet people I'm friends with, she is comfortable being among them and just being herself.
what a bizarre night last night. after a week of disappointments (followed by a week of motivation and confidence) on the job app front, finally began to see forward progress on the site at work. planned a meeting with fred and barb and jeff and co on capitol hill to see Capote, then missed the bus in the crush downtown (sonics game + various shows). caught one wrong one, caught one right one, arrived 5 minutes before showtime. loved the film, then went with barb and fred to wonderful viet place named green papaya a couple of blocks from the theater. all happiness until i got home, barb snapping over me almost hitting her plastic sawhorses with the car in the garage, then getting big mail from dad. erma's resisting dialysis to improve kidney function still. worse, he's got mild diabetes now and he contracted a foot infection that put him in the hospital for a week and after he got out is having to quit teaching and get a nurse's aide in to administer antibiotics i.v. to kill the infection. and then joanie calls to say the celebration barb had wanted with all our friends for anno 23 may be off 'cause scott may decide to go to the football game with tom and keely instead of going out to snohomish with us. god damn. so barb and i watch a perfectly terrible movie instead and then i dream i'm telling joanie this on the phone but i awake and i'm not and my dad's still home and i don't know what the hell to do. my dad has always had the virtue (for a dad) of letting us know everything's under control. this is coupled with the vice that he loses his shit completely and turns completely inward when things begin to slip away from him. like, no calls, and even my offer of a visit i bet gets rebuffed. (and barb is all ready to climb on the plane, bless her.) so it's another cold and grey saturday. week after we go off daylight savings time and that's typically the worst: darkest, and this time (like many years) it's also when the temp drops 15 degrees and the rains come and the winds with them. so i wish i could share in the joy that it's the weekend, just don't know what the rest of it (or at least the rest of today) holds.
and in sympathy with mr. libby, scott would like to be known herewith as "scooter."
i've always thought of my father as a worrier. fortunately, he also made me feel like he had things under control and there was always something you could do no matter how bad things got. my mom and he taught me that in times of real emergency, make sure the field of vision is small and focused. one thing i can say about my childhood that no matter what other damage or distrust i got, i never felt like if the worst happened i'd rather be in anyone's hands but my parents'.
for some reason the story has moved to a different part of the family. joanie's pericarditis, then last saturday night spent bowling with tom and keely and fred and julie and jeff julie's brother. we conceived the idea of doing a movie night tonight to see Goodbye and Good Luck (which I'll review--marvelous film) with fred and jeff and mary kay jeff's wife. then all drove over to pagliacci near lake forest park and sat around and jabbered and laughed. keely is so incredible. she has the calm watchfulness of her dad, and his and her mom's eloquence and humor. watching tom and jeff talk was also a happy goal successfully completed.
extends another lazy beautiful fall day. i think it is just the collected, redispersed energy of so many extraordinary people interacting with one another. main accomplishments included: load of dishes, shower, downloading some songs, watching the end of god-awful lifetime network movie, talk to mom. love love love. every last one of you, them, us!
any collection of my family that shows up for a party (alternative explanation: anytime barb controls the invite list) i am dazzled at the beautiful array of humanity i have the privelege of loving.
and she's bound to love me some. um hum,love those nighties with the lace and flowers. hug her wonderful curves just so. damn what a beautiful woman.
don't know why but was feeling anxious today. stupid stuff like the stock market and politrix. then barb calls and says joanie had called and was getting chest pains checked out and also that tom lost his startup job to a typical political power play, well that's how those go, they land on their feet but i worry anyway. so to forget tonite i go to redmond town center (or is that "centre"?) and see deep blue, silly enough though way too long.